Thursday, November 3, 2011

You know, here on Day 2 of my November daily blog posting I want to talk about music.  Since I am writing a blog post every day I am always thinking of things to write about.  Lately I have been very busy (well maybe not so much as VERY busy - more of a lack of time management skills...or a slight addiction to Facebook).  I have many many different things going on in my life.  I have two children, I babysit, I run my own candle business, I run two blogs, I write for other groups...yada yada yada (Yes, a Seinfeld reference :-/)  And it is all just great.  I love every minute of it!  I would much rather have 100 things to do on any given day than NOTHING to do. 

And now my post is moving in another direction.....So, back to my original train of thought......

I LOVE music.  If it weren't for music I really believe that I might be insane at this point in my life.  Music has helped me in so so so so many ways.  Mainly therapy. 

The older i grow, the more songs I add to my palate and the more nostalgic songs make me feel.  I don't even think I would consider it "nostalgia".  For some songs, yes.  Others just invoke emotions inside of me.  And it is really great when the perfect mood fitting song comes on at the perfect time and it is like a scene from a movie.  (Of course we won't recollect the time I cried on a date because "Don't Take the Girl" by Tim McGraw was on.  Oh, and it wasn't a date.  I was just hanging with a guy I liked and I was drinking.....Yeah)

I could write a whole book on songs, lyrics, and emotions.  But this is not the place and I don't have the time.  Today on my drive home from dropping my children's dad off to work I heard "Man in the Mirror" by Michael Jackson.  This is one of my all time favorite songs.  It just has such a significant meaning to it.  For me at least.  "..If you want to make the world a better place take a look at yourself and make a change..."  For real.  Sometimes when I hear that song I get teary and want to cry!  (I can tend to be a bit on the over emotional side too).  It is not a sad song and I don't feel sad when I hear it.  I really don't know how I feel....Hopeful, motivated to do SOMETHING.

I guess it is songs that touch me like "Man in the Mirror" that really have an impact on how I feel, think, and react at any given moment.

And there are certain songs that I cannot even listen to without crying.  Songs that I will turn the station if I hear it because it hurts.  In June 2009 we had a son, Kellaen, born at 35 1/2 weeks.  He was diagnosed with neonatal encephalopathy and lived in the NICU for one month.  Passed away on July 10th (ironically, my due date).  I might write about that someday but really, even 2 1/2 years later, the pain is still too great.  So, my point (I ramble...)...  I cannot listen to "Tears in Heaven" by Eric Clapton.  Pssh, that is already a sad song which has only been compounded by our loss.  And our song to our son was "Let it Be" by The Beatles.  So that is kind of out for me now.  I do listen to it though and feel a renewed sense of appreciation for what I do have in life and not what was lost <3

Well, that was a bummer. 

And there are songs that make me HAPPY!!

Like "Love Shack" by the B-52's.  "True Blue" by Madonna.  And lots more. 

I am tired and this post is way off track but I don't care.  Part of me writing every day is to get out some stuff and hopefully organize my thoughts a little better (in future posts, LOL)

So...That's it!


  1. Glad to meet you via NaBloPoMo. I'm Redquill (319 on the blog roll). I picked about a dozen blogs more or less at random to follow and you are one of them. Happy to see you write in a style that's fun to read.

    Songs can lift you up or tear you down or help you express deep emotions like grief. I think people should be very careful of what songs they let into their world and use them as a healing therapy. I purposely look up happy songs when I'm depressed and it helps a lot. My latest favorites are Don't Worry Be Happy, and Big Girls You Are Beautiful. I'll be looking forward to your posts.

  2. Well thanks for following me! Don't Worry Be Happy is a great song...and "What a Wonderful World".